hey everyone
Christmas is coming:) and i just woke up from a nap.. everyones at my house watching "it's a wonderful life" (that's a good movie) so i played the guitar and read the bible. i'v read the whole New Testiment! (i started like last may or something) so anyways... i'll try to write stuff, but i'm a little bit tired so umm.. ya ...k

i was listening to the wildings CD and i liked this song on it and i was going to type it out for you but the lyrics are in my brothers room.. but i'll still try to remember the words...

let my life count for something, let me be a burning flame;
let my life count for something, let it be a holy flame


OH I... WANNA LIVE FOR THE KING


let my life count for something, let it be a sacrifice;
let my life count for something, let it be a life of praise

(that's most of it)

anyways, i was like dancing in my room to it.. it was awesome :) ..ya

there's another song on the CD that was like "you're my heart's desire" and it's such a spicy song man! idn... i'm really trying lately to really wrap my mind around what these songs are saying and what we're acually telling God. for example, "undivided focus" by heather clark, when we sing the words, do we know what we're saying "i am in love with undivided focus" and "i am yours" what does that mean? i am yours? it means that i love you more than anything else, i belong to you, i think about you more than anything else... think of what it must be like to be crazy fallen in love.. well that's what we say we are when we sing those words. they are deeper than some cute song with heathers nice voice, it's pure worship. let's not drop empty words that fall to the ground. lets not just sing songs just cause we know the words, we need to mean what you say people!

anyways... basically what i want, is very up there and sometimes it just feels like i'm not getting any closer to obtaining it. like i'v told you in past posts what i want to be and do, but it's SO HARD. i want my life to count for something, i want to be a sacrifice! O God help me! i need you beside me i need to hold your hand. please just come closer to me. make it easier for me to be in UNDIVIDED focus and devotion to you. let this christmas mean something. let it be a time to draw nearer to You Jesus.
amen.
i love you all!

~christine