why am i so weak? Gods power is so amazing, his love is overwhelming, his mercy is awesome, his sacrifice is beautiful. he wants to bless me so much, he wants to give me amazing things, he wants to walk with me, eat with me. he wants to be a part of my life, the centre of my life. he died for me! he wants me! he wants ME... a sinner... just as i am. just as weak as i am, just as lazy as i am...

knowing all of this, how is it possible for me to stop putting in the effort of a relationship? how dare i take this for granted? how can i feel so helpless, and feel like i'll never get back into the place where i once was. why do i feel like i can't pray? why don't i want it enough.. why am i satisfied? why won't i go for it and run with it? how come my fire seems to be dying so often?

...i hate it...

God please give me strength. pour your grace down over me... wash it away.. wash my sin, clean my spirit, purify my thoughts, remove my disobedience, cleanse my wounds, soften my heart...

when i hear you
i will follow

when it's silent
i will trust you

from the darkness of the night
from despair into the light

make me whole
make me clean
make me pure as gold again

let me shine
like the stars
in the brilliant evening sky

~the wildings

MusiC:
i just got the new blindside CD "about a burning fire" i like "eye of the storm" and i'm going to see them and POD play in june! waterdeep is cool too:) i'm excited to see the wildings play at fuel

Lord you’re near to those who are discouraged
You save those who have lost all hope
You’ve taken my sorrow and surrounded me with joy
You’re here with me, your touch gives me life
~Samuel Lane~

"when i am weak, then i am strong..."
~2 Corinthians. 12:10b



!AWAKE, MY SOUL!