i wanna love you but i don't know if i can

Trying hard to speak

And fighting with my weak hand

Driven to distraction

So part of the plan

When something is broken

And you try to fix it

Trying to repair it

Any way you can

I dive in at the deep end

You become my best friend

I wanna love you but I don't know if I can

I know something is broken and

I'm trying to fix it

Trying to repair it anyway I can

Oooohh, oooohh

Oooohh, oooohh

You and me are floating on a tidal wave... together

You and me are drifting into outer space... and singing

Oooohh, oooohh

it seems like i've put God in my pocket and forgot about him til after my pants came out of the wash...
i desire to grow closer to God.. i desire to be able to talk with him and spend time with him. but it's like.. i'm too busy, i literally keep forgetting, i'm to lazy, i'm too weak, i'm too patheltic. ...but maybe it's not up to me.. maybe if i stopped thinking about how horrible i am, and what i can't do, and started thinking about how amazing God is and what incredible things he can do.. then my perspective can change...

time.
sometimes there just isn't enough. sometimes i waste too much of it.
you can never get it back. maybe i should spend it well

maybe i can pray, but how do you pray?
maybe i can know what it means to be one with christ, to recognise his presence... but how?
maybe i can be what God wants me to me, but whats that
maybe i can find strength in Him, i just feel too weak to ask
mabe i can talk to him, but before i start, i've stopped
i feel like i've lost some passion.. some desire maybe i dont want it enough to out the effort in.
i've forgotten
christianity isn't a religion its a relationship
i dont want rules to follow, i don't want to be a pharisee
i just want to love God and others
to me thats what being a christian is.

what i feel and what i am is 2 different things.
i think i'll stop writing what i feel now.

God, let everything i do come out of love.