hi guys
i'm so excited about the passion you have no idea!! o man... i'm going to be a mess!i've been putting off posting a blog for a long time so i need to do one.. i have to go to bed soon but that's ok.

lately i've really busy with a lot of things and it's been hard to spend a lot of time with God. ok... three weeks... hmm what did i do? oh! i was sick for a long time with a cold and i got the stomach flu last week... on valentines day i went to janelles with some other girls and we were praying for each other which was really awesome! wow those times are so amazing. i encourage you all to get some friends together and pray, it is a blessing. i love you guys! thanks for praying for me and being such great encouragers :) anyways... not too much is new with me.. thats why i havn't written on here. i'm not really doing to well at school.. i have lots of friends, but most of them are all older than me so in my class, it's hard to fit in because it's SO cliquey!! (yup.. can't spell) o man.. it's not cool. so pray for me about that.

the P (mary powell) has really got me thinking about the whole "go on a date with Jesus " thing. it's about time i spend a little bit more time with my lover. i haven't been really to much lately because of volleyball and lots of homework and junk... but it's still not really a good excuse. anyways... i hope i'm not too loaded with plans this weekend cuz i want to like have a date with God.. maybe make him dinner... go for a walk, read my bible... write him a letter... Jesus told me that he wanted to make a snowman with me... then janelle was like "make snowman cookies!! :)" that was about a week ago so i hope i can do that...

i think Gods telling me to be friends with "nobodies" as romans 12 (msg) tells it. and idn.. God was saying to me one night -i don't remember when- to befriend them and stuff... people who i wouldn't normally hang out with. this is one of my weaknesses and so i was like "oh God i'm not the one who you should send! i'm so not good enough to do it. who am i to reach out to these people?" i'm like moses! woah! (read Exodus ch.3) o man then God was like "Christine, you know how much i'm been telling you about being humble and if you really want to see 'how low you can go', you will do what i say." o my o my! how can i argue with God? ...yet there's so much disobediant passion inside of me... i wich God wanted me to do something else... like heal the sick.. or like, be a missionary.. but no.. i gotta be humble. crap! i'm really bitter. i need help! i'm SO WEAK! ahh. but i think maybe Gods giving me a little taste of what it feels like to be left out. cause of what i said before about my class... ya. i can't even imagine how some people must feel! i would be totally MESSED up if i didn't have the friends i have! wow.. i feel sorry for them, but at the same time, i want to be comfortable. i don't want to help 'em out! i'm so pathetic.. thanks for listeing to me ramble this out... all this reminds me of what Jesus said in Matthew somewhere-i can't find it- but it says something like "when did we see you thirsty and give you a drink? when did we see you without clothes and give you something to wear my Lord? then Jesus said i tell you, what you did for the least of these, you did it for me." (all you bible scholars out there who know where this is, please tell me in the comments thingy). but this scripture ties into what i said on my last post on worship. being a friend to the friendless is like doing it for God's glory. it's worship! ...i really don't want to do it... pray for me you guys...

ok! switchfoot was supossed to play in Vancouver on march 23rd, but now THEY AREN'T! i'm so mad, they're on of my favourites. but they'll be in Seattle on march 22nd so that might still be a possibility.

so... i think that's pretty much it.. besides, it's geting past my bedtime ;) so... i love you guys.. if i remember more stuff i'll try to post again this week.

p.s the new blindside CD rocks the kazba! (whatever the crap that is!?) anyways.. i'm getting in for my birthday! :) i'm so excited.

~christine~

the bible is great:
~ Joshua 1:9 ~ Psalm 105:32 (NLT) ~ ...yay for psalms! read them all! ~

hi everyone.. Robyns graduating at my school!! yes! ...it was Janelle's and my Moms birthday last saturday.. happy birthday guys:)

today was really not good. i got sick again and now i'm not at youth. the new semester is telling me that it's a "no-fun-lots-of-homework" kind of deal. i'm kind of not finding my place in my school for some reason.. maybe my friends were just in a bad mood yesterday. my shoulders and back are real sore from an hour and a half of straight hitting drills last sunday. i missed one of my dance classes last week and so i'm behind on the coreography. i'm not getting along too well right now with my family... other than that, i'm doing great! :)

just now as i was sitting, God was just telling me to calm down... i was getting really annoyed with my mom. He was like "you know what? change your attitude. i am worthy of praise RIGHT NOW and even if you don't feel like it, you need to be in a mindset of worship." and it's so cool... :) no matter what i'm going through, God still needs to be given all the glory, even when i'm feeling selfish. it's all about sacrifice!

i've been thinking for a while now about worship. everything we do can be worship. doing chores, singing, homework, sports, praying, sitting, obeying, reading. walking, dancing, playing an instrument, being nice to people in you life.. this is all worship if you have the right heart! if you want to live for Jesus, you can do everything you do for His glory! he is so worthy of it! Jesus told me this trick: do it all for him.
if our parents tell you to do your chores, and it's the last thing you want to be doing, do it for God. don't want to do your homework today? do it because it will gives glory to Jesus. are you fighting with our parents? stop, change our selfish attitude and work it out. get it? he knows our heart, and he knows when you are doing stuff like this. you store up some treasure in heaven every time! God will honor you. living every day like this will motivate you and keep you kingdom-minded. it helps so much! you get along with your parents better and you feel better because you know that you brought great pleasure to God that day. sure it's hard, God had to remind me of it today, but if you keep working at it, it will be a habit!! wouldn't that be wonderful? a livestyle full of paassion for God in worship?

Colossians 3:23 "work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people."

i need to surrender... all that i am belongs to Him. i don't want to just talk about being His and living for Him. i actually want to be a living sacrifice before my father! i don't know about you, but i have SO much pride, selfishness, and sinfulness inside of me. i'm not perfect. so why would anybody in their right mind not accept God's grace, love, and forgiveness? Jesus DIED for you because you are a sinner, then when you do sin, he takes it away, makes you holy, and crowns you with love and compassion! why wouldn't you want that?? everyday, we need to lay down our sinful nature, give it all to Jesus and let him inside of you. i've been trying to do this every morning. saing "God, this da belongs to You. i need you to help me get rid of myself today. isn't good enough for me, i'm not satisfyed. i want you. please take away my selfishness and give me your love so i can live it today. help me walk in humility." of course we all make mistakes and mess up during the day, yesterday morning i prayed that, there was a lot of negative things coming out of my mouth. But if you surrender your day to God and tell him that it belongs to him, that's what God loves. it brings him pleasure when you try to speak life and not death. He loves it when you try to love your neighbor as you love yourself. strive for it. it's not impossible. if you want it, God will give you the strength.

Galatians 5:24
"Those who are follwers of Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to his cross and crucified them there."

James 1:19
"...be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to get angry."

Phillippians 2:3-4
"do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others."

that's it for now... God bless you

~christine~

music: The Wildings, Heather Clark, Blindside
bible: 1 John 4:7-21, James 2:1, 4:7-8